Beautiful Impossibility
It’s almost Aidan’s birthday again. Oddly enough, in some ways I spend just as much, if not more time, preparing for his birthday than I do any other of our family’s birthdays. Perhaps it’s because for Aidan’s birthday it’s not simply a matter of what will we do but how to do. And ten years later I’m still never really sure of what the “right” way is to go about this. He’d be turning 15 this year. He was a year behind in school so I imagine he’d probably be pretty excited about graduating 8th grade and starting high school with his friends. He’d probably just settle for one birthday/graduation party. I could continue on with all the different probablies, like what activities he was involved with, what sports he played, and so on as I’ve imagined over the years, but the thing is, that never really leads me anywhere but sadness and one thing I am sure of is he absolutely would not want that sadness. So this past year, I stopped imagining the...